I wrote many, my opinion..my feeling..But, when its almost done..I cleared them all...not feeling well while writting those stuff... Today, opps!...should be yesterday...was my birthday..I cant let those words spoil my only day... :P pissed off!!
Ok...I did feel touching and really happy that my friends celebrated my birthday with me at a nice restaurant... Food is the second, but you guys are the most reason that made me fulled... ^.^
Speechless... omg..
Fine,lastly.. actually i think i am just coward... to spend more time in my school, to enjoy together with my U friends...Its not because of the loneliness problem or that i have to LS to my IMU friends that made me not to involve myself much in school...Its because, I am afraid... that i will fade away from my old best friends after knowing the new ones.. I dont wanna get this change.. I am less confidence for myself to guarantee that i wont.. sooooooo shxt!
Tell me that i wont... and i will never ever do that..
night guys..
Thursday, 21 January 2010
Monday, 18 January 2010
Soaring Bird. I am Dex
I do. I really do have this feeling.
My first video done...Myself, spending few hours in examine, observe, try, failed, try.. failed, and try... Finally, successfully edited my 1st short-movie..
yea..its really short..just about 1 minute more... But.. :) i know you can feel how the feeling of succeed and joy i have those right now though my eyes are spinning and head is like dumped.. =.=
yea..its true..I can really feel the touching part of the movie although we didnt mean it before when shooting.. haha...
Its a parody of " yu yan sang-birdnest" --- "shou zhao lv cha"... Hope you will like and....erm...enjoy~ ^.^
My first video done...Myself, spending few hours in examine, observe, try, failed, try.. failed, and try... Finally, successfully edited my 1st short-movie..
yea..its really short..just about 1 minute more... But.. :) i know you can feel how the feeling of succeed and joy i have those right now though my eyes are spinning and head is like dumped.. =.=
yea..its true..I can really feel the touching part of the movie although we didnt mean it before when shooting.. haha...
Its a parody of " yu yan sang-birdnest" --- "shou zhao lv cha"... Hope you will like and....erm...enjoy~ ^.^
Friday, 15 January 2010
Last Begging
Being hesitated for a long time,wondering whether i should update my blog today or not..But apparently, you can see my final decision.. ^.^
Why am i considered so long about it? Cause its 3am now!! I really have to re-regulate my so called "bio-clock"... =.= Cant always sleep such late..Will be dying when coming to open school...
Actually, I am quite moody today... (hate that i am always have such negative feeling!!) I dont know why.. No reason? Not exactly.. Maybe its about that i have to help my sis to deliver some important document to my friend which could be done easily if i CAN wake in the morning so that i can pass to my friend before she went back.. =.= But i failed, so i have to drive there to JUST deliver those "stuff"... Feeling that its quite wasting petrol, time, and energy..haiz.. But i had to do this cause its my fault to overslept..
Sure not just about that could make me emo.. :I have no money, I have to work in dad's office, I have a school project to finish, and because.. my.. my birthday is near.. =.=
"My.. my birthday is near.." ??? Yeah, dont feel any confuse.. because years before, the days around and also exact on my birthday were not "ordinary" days.. "Somethings" will happens that..totally ruin my "birthday mood".. aikhss..
Friend, I had really thought about to open the X'mas gift you gave me: little "sad-then open" tip boxes, but time didnt allow me to. After i got back to home and settled things down, it changed. I felt not that down and negative as i felt in the day time. By the way, I cried when driving in the car. Feel shameful.
As long as now everythings felt alright.
Today's sleeping wish: no sadness, no emo, happiness gathered, happy together.
Why am i considered so long about it? Cause its 3am now!! I really have to re-regulate my so called "bio-clock"... =.= Cant always sleep such late..Will be dying when coming to open school...
Actually, I am quite moody today... (hate that i am always have such negative feeling!!) I dont know why.. No reason? Not exactly.. Maybe its about that i have to help my sis to deliver some important document to my friend which could be done easily if i CAN wake in the morning so that i can pass to my friend before she went back.. =.= But i failed, so i have to drive there to JUST deliver those "stuff"... Feeling that its quite wasting petrol, time, and energy..haiz.. But i had to do this cause its my fault to overslept..
Sure not just about that could make me emo.. :I have no money, I have to work in dad's office, I have a school project to finish, and because.. my.. my birthday is near.. =.=
"My.. my birthday is near.." ??? Yeah, dont feel any confuse.. because years before, the days around and also exact on my birthday were not "ordinary" days.. "Somethings" will happens that..totally ruin my "birthday mood".. aikhss..
Friend, I had really thought about to open the X'mas gift you gave me: little "sad-then open" tip boxes, but time didnt allow me to. After i got back to home and settled things down, it changed. I felt not that down and negative as i felt in the day time. By the way, I cried when driving in the car. Feel shameful.
As long as now everythings felt alright.
Today's sleeping wish: no sadness, no emo, happiness gathered, happy together.
Tuesday, 12 January 2010
X: mute :X
Chilling in my room..and i think today i wont be too late to get into sleep..
today, friends and me were talking about--definition bout handsome and beautiful...but i have no mood to talk about it right now..Whatever, all i think is..doesnt matter if you just look normal, confidence brings graceful..
Why am i such dumb and fxcking depressed now? actually.."fxcking" doesnt mean that i am angrying..just...suddenly feel that i am quite nothing...Feel that i am quite far apart from my friends, of their souls, deep in their minds..
Maybe the fact is, i am not well understanding them huh? Or..i am just keep ignoring and avoiding that, thats my problem? funny...
this post is pointless..sorry guys for who had spent a couple of minutes in reading it.. take care..
today, friends and me were talking about--definition bout handsome and beautiful...but i have no mood to talk about it right now..Whatever, all i think is..doesnt matter if you just look normal, confidence brings graceful..
Why am i such dumb and fxcking depressed now? actually.."fxcking" doesnt mean that i am angrying..just...suddenly feel that i am quite nothing...Feel that i am quite far apart from my friends, of their souls, deep in their minds..
Maybe the fact is, i am not well understanding them huh? Or..i am just keep ignoring and avoiding that, thats my problem? funny...
this post is pointless..sorry guys for who had spent a couple of minutes in reading it.. take care..
Monday, 11 January 2010
Dex-juice 11012010
Today is 2010/01/11, 3.40am...headache, due to "3.40am"!!!..but still the mood to update my blog surging my mind..
before writing this, had reviewed my previous post..felt that..i was not that bad in writing blog huh? :P
Friends ask me that why am i rather using english but not chinese in composing my blog? ...I think.."troublesome" is playing quite a main role..haha..bsides,(i am not that expert in expressing my deep feeling by using chinese) hahaha!! sorry, CHKL.. :P doesnt mean that my english is good enough, however, hope to improve my writing skill instead..
Holiday-ing now..but i cant just fill it with dotA, FB, and sleep..=.= sooo...i think i will TRY my best, try to update my blog everyday.. ^.^ somemore i am planning to bake, get back to piano lesson and exercise..My aim is to have a SLIM SKINNY face!!! die hard to get it!
i am listening "alicia key-doesnt mean anything"...what a drug addicted pop..meaningful lyrics and enchanted melody.. love it! but "love" absolutely not a favourite topic for me.. Haiz, maybe its true..that, its totally not the problem that my personalities caused me to avoid "love"..its just, i am cowardly to face, to have it.. But i still believe that..someday, when fate comes, whatever how shit i am, i will say: "yes", to love.. yea..so, wait~............
4.09am!! omg, have to sleep now...
before writing this, had reviewed my previous post..felt that..i was not that bad in writing blog huh? :P
Friends ask me that why am i rather using english but not chinese in composing my blog? ...I think.."troublesome" is playing quite a main role..haha..bsides,(i am not that expert in expressing my deep feeling by using chinese) hahaha!! sorry, CHKL.. :P doesnt mean that my english is good enough, however, hope to improve my writing skill instead..
Holiday-ing now..but i cant just fill it with dotA, FB, and sleep..=.= sooo...i think i will TRY my best, try to update my blog everyday.. ^.^ somemore i am planning to bake, get back to piano lesson and exercise..My aim is to have a SLIM SKINNY face!!! die hard to get it!
i am listening "alicia key-doesnt mean anything"...what a drug addicted pop..meaningful lyrics and enchanted melody.. love it! but "love" absolutely not a favourite topic for me.. Haiz, maybe its true..that, its totally not the problem that my personalities caused me to avoid "love"..its just, i am cowardly to face, to have it.. But i still believe that..someday, when fate comes, whatever how shit i am, i will say: "yes", to love.. yea..so, wait~............
4.09am!! omg, have to sleep now...
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